thx for the advise (: andd awwww):i hope it all works out (:

ily,

julie (:

and those people are???

names??

Here's

to all the girls who used to be his number one. The ones who waited all

night for him to call, only to check the caller ID the next morning and

be disappointed. The ones who made it through that bitter break up,

dried your own tears, and moved on with your life, only to have him

walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened. Those of you

who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly

where this phone call was going. The ones who listened to him say, "I

only want to be your friend", one day, and the next, listened to him

say how much he loves and misses you. We deserve something, and this is

our tribute. Here is to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe

this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change.

We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even

thinking about giving him another chance, caught crap from our parents,

and even snuck around to see him for while. We went through the great

stage with no fights all over again. We started this out thinking it

would be just friends, and ended up falling in love with him again. We

wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us

too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be

different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we were

dreaming. This is for us. Here is to the ones who believed what he

said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might

come in a few hours, or a few days. Here is for the tears cried and

dried all over again. We wanted so desperately to believe that he was

really busy, he couldn't possibly call us at that moment, or even that

he fell asleep early. We trained ourselves to believe the lies because

we wanted to believe we had found the one for us. We learned to settle

for someone who did not treat us the way we should be treated. Here is

for the ones who did their hair and make up and put on their prettiest

earrings, only to hear him say that he couldn't see us today. The ones

who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else.

We just could not believe that he could do this to us again. This is

for those great girls who loved him more than words can say, and took

him back no matter what happened last time because they could not bear

to look back on their lives one day and wonder "what if." This is for

the girls that stayed up all night long listening to him whine about an

ex girlfriend who cheated on him, and cried during the entire

conversation. The ones who hoped he would realize that he deserved

better, that he deserved us. When he said that he loved you, but he was

in love with her, he did not mean it. This is for the ones that held on

to something that was never there to begin with. This is for us girls,

who somehow managed to get him to forget about her, and get him to tell

us that he was in love with us again, only to have him tell us three

weeks later, "things were going too fast, he needs time." Here is to

the girls who could not cry to their friends because of how stupid they

felt. The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces

again. This is for the ones who could not bear to even tell their mom

what was going on, for fear of an "I told you so." The ones that could

just tell that they had made a mistake ever allowing him into their

hearts and their dreams again. We knew that we deserved better the

entire time, that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was

going to, one that would come see us whenever he got the chance, one

that would really care about us. We just wanted the one that we loved

like that. Here is for the ones that finally realized that he never

gave a crap about them. Here is for the time that he broke your heart

again. This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, and

the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment. Here's for us

girls who finally realized that we deserve better. This is for those

confusing days, when you miss him and want nothing more than to hear

his voice, or feel his arms around your waist. Stay strong and remember

that relationships are like broken glass; sometimes it's better to

leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together and get

hurt. Remember the times you cried and how long it took you to even be

able to look at another guy like that. When 'your song' comes on the

radio, turn the station. When the day comes that he realizes what a

mistake he made and tries calling, turn your phone off. When he tries

coming to your house, do not answer the door. Think of the broken

promises, and the lies, the manipulation and the tears, the wasted

moments and staying up all night wondering where the crap he was. Think

of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the

middle of the night and how it fell to your stomach when you saw it was

not him, and realized that once again, he had not called when he said

he was going to. One day you will find a guy whose worth all the tears,

but he won't make you cry. You may think that you will never care about

someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you

will. It is going to hurt like crap, and it is going to need time to

heal, but the point is, it will heal. This is for those girls who fell

back in love with their ex, only to get hurt all over again.

 Don't let guys turn you in to someone else and make you hate life, live it to the fullest without the regrets!!!!!

Peace Be With You LiMissSunshinezz,

If you need someone to talk to write me my Name is Bonnie, and my author name is myluvforjesus. If just want to talk I am here to listen.

Lord Bless You

Bonnie

yeah :-( it's a horrible cycle...

just got to challenge the situation and try and pick yourself up.

hope it's all ok.

and yes i was thinking of little miss obsessive...i love that song also :)

That's practically my life lol.  And thanks so much for the happy birthday!

~Tons of love

yea itsz happened to0 me alot.. thnxsz 4 the comment... andd i'll try and do0 that juu wait!!

It happened to me severely once. Life was amazing, and then it crashed so badly, I could hardly move. I was crying almost non-stop, because people were making me cry. But, after about eight months of barely surviving, it all started to come back together, and now I'm flying high. We all have problems; I'm not saying my life isn't problem-free (hell, my family life is the most miserable experience); but we learn to push through them, because it could always be worse. Can you resite the date of the worst day of your life? If you cannot, feel lucky that it could be worse. And if you can, like me, Sunday, April 13th, 2008, then you realize life will never get that bad again. <3

well I'm glad u guys worked things out and I Don't know what happened at the end but at least u started off good!

[lipglossluvr28]

hey I'm randomly reading ur diary.

Yeah it maybe not be my business but u should tell him it's better to know what's up

if he's cheating dump him, or try to find out what it is he's hiding. Maybe it's something good, but if he is cheating, dump him.

Hey, chill. I'm not an exert on these things, but jheez, those guys who commented seem to know what they're on about, but I'm here for moral support whenevs (:

Much love!

 dont get down  on yourself.he needs to deal w. his condition.Im sorry  there was a fight , but he needs to see a dr to see how he can relax his emotional side(physchologist), when stress somes into play.  why do you need to keep the steam in, its like an adiction. not your fault.I know ya love him, but    dont live a life, of keeping stuff built up.

[fromthisdayfwd]

your last entry was months ago!

[[exagerated]]

sorry wrong person haha

haha we're not going out, plus her mum met me onse if she saw me snoggin her daughter, well guess haha

i loved this song,
im glad that you enjoyed your day at school,
i always hated school but now after i graduated i miss it and my friends more each day :[

Much lovee

My mom doesn't like to see me because i don't like to see her. it's this mutual hate we have for eachother that only i can confess outloud because i can pass with pure teenage angst where as i can get her for slander. I love my mom.. i just sometimes findmyself wishing she would crash her car and die one her way home from work.

As for Ireland, My very bestest friend, my ashley, loves ireland. SO we're saving our money and when we gratuate we're going to fly up there, find some cute irish lads and get plastered. and maybe go hide in a castle and visit a coupole museums/malls. whatever we feel.

thanks for the comment and i wish you luck 2!!!

-<3-Tasha

hahahaha its alright haha

thanks for your comment =) you MDD people r soo nice!

[sodapop4]

ty for the advice

i will keep that in mind lol

u actually made me smile today lol thanks

Ugh I hate when people don't recycle. I've freaked out on my friends for not doing it but they understand and don't forget ever when I'm around. It's wonderful that you recycle though! More people should.

As for your what to wear problem I don't know.. You seem really proud of your DC shoes and it wouldn't be good to flaunt them next to purple jeans. If you're still undecided find a way to make them both work or just wear one outfit one day and the other the next.

You should wright her a poem or a song! Something from the heart is truely the best!

Good Luck!

Love, Darcy

Well what does she like. (e.g. my friend cori loves bubbles so thats what i got her) If there's anything small she adores get her that.

Another thing you could do is make her a shirt. buy a plain shirt maybe in her favorite color and use t-shirt paint or silk-screen a print onto it.

And make her a home-made card because those are the best! be creative and put effort into it. Cut things our of magazines and use glitter or something.

On my twelfth birthday my friend baked me a cake. It didn't taste very good but it looked wonderful, besides its the thought that counts.

[TreeHugging]

Just my random dumb ideas..
but
1. Make her a kick ass card. Hand made. By You. Make it special.
2. Get her a cheap necklace or something from spencers.
3. Go to the mall and hang out and then go to the movies.
(Buy the ticket obviously or just hang out at the mall and tell her
to pick something out she likes and buy it for her)
4. Buy her a cupcake lol idk.
goodluck<3

Most Juniors here are 16-17. I am 16. And yeah, alot of girls here are really stupid.

One of them is my sister.

Why they're like this? I don't know. It usually only happens when they flirt. For example, my best friend, who is really intellegent, ran into a guy she liked at a theme park. While talking to this guy she claimed to have a vital artery in her finger. His response was "Wow, you must have a pretty big finger." Why this happened? I really don't know. Maybe girls want to come off as easy and the less common sense you have the easier you are.  I guess the main problem here is we don't think before we speak. I don't know what it's like where you are but we have the freedom here to say whatever we like. No matter how ignorant it makes us seem, and I know I'm guilty of it too. And also look at who our society sets up as idols and puts on the covers of magazines that tell people how they should be.

UR VERY PRETTY

r u serious???

everyone thinks he is so young!!!!!!!!!!!!

godd luck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

have a great time on ur date!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sounds like ur friend was put in the middle of u to, if she  is willin to take what u want she should be a better friend and turn it down knowin ur tryin to get it, but everyone loves someone who loves someone else.

he sounds like a right dick! ignor him sweet!
i aint a lad, but i certainly dont think you look ugly you look sorta like lilly allen hehe,
dont let him get to you! :)

<3